Wtf, I cried watching Happy Feet.
Interesting ending though.
OMG!
16 years ago
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Thursday, January 27, 2011
I must be tired
So many heart string pulling parts in "Going Home" (Channel U 8 - 9pm).
Iriana Halim seems like a very interesting introvert who lives primarily in her own world. I'd like to see introverts making insightful comments and observations and discovering their inner selves.
The one part that I felt rather emotional about was her talking about her Chinese teacher Ding Zhongfu who gave her a...calligraphy note? And a teddy bear before she immigrated to another country (I forgot which). Now that she's revisiting her old school, she realised it was too late for her to express her gratitude because he'd already passed away.
Perhaps I'm just tired in general, but thoughts like this are a norm to me... Thoughts about when and how people would be leaving you. Sometimes it's an indifferent curiosity, sometimes it causes so much anxiety it pains me.
Each year, I feel like I'm getting closer to the crux of the issue. Yet at the same time, I feel like each year, I'm closer to the end of this lifetime.
By rights, I should live till about the average lifespan of 60~80+... But sometimes, I feel like the end is far, or maybe just sooner than we all expect it to be.
I'm not suicidal if you're wondering...
Just that...I think while we're still alive...more of us need to learn contented living. If we're contented now...we die contented. The thought of forever chasing a happier life because right now society doesn't approve you and then accidentally dying discontented...
...I think I should put all that in my private fic. Haha.
Iriana Halim seems like a very interesting introvert who lives primarily in her own world. I'd like to see introverts making insightful comments and observations and discovering their inner selves.
The one part that I felt rather emotional about was her talking about her Chinese teacher Ding Zhongfu who gave her a...calligraphy note? And a teddy bear before she immigrated to another country (I forgot which). Now that she's revisiting her old school, she realised it was too late for her to express her gratitude because he'd already passed away.
Perhaps I'm just tired in general, but thoughts like this are a norm to me... Thoughts about when and how people would be leaving you. Sometimes it's an indifferent curiosity, sometimes it causes so much anxiety it pains me.
Each year, I feel like I'm getting closer to the crux of the issue. Yet at the same time, I feel like each year, I'm closer to the end of this lifetime.
By rights, I should live till about the average lifespan of 60~80+... But sometimes, I feel like the end is far, or maybe just sooner than we all expect it to be.
I'm not suicidal if you're wondering...
Just that...I think while we're still alive...more of us need to learn contented living. If we're contented now...we die contented. The thought of forever chasing a happier life because right now society doesn't approve you and then accidentally dying discontented...
...I think I should put all that in my private fic. Haha.
Sentimental
Wrote yet another sad part to my private fic. :'(
That aside...
Relevant people will probably never read this but whatever it is...
To the different people who used to be in my life, I'm probably a part of your past, significant or insignificant.
To be honest... I want to remain in the past. I don't want to reawaken something that died long ago. It's almost melancholic to watch people trying to catch the past that no longer lives today. We try to catch up, but really...there's nothing interesting about me. I don't like watching people trying so hard to find something to speak to me with.
I want to keep the doors closed.
And to the people who are still in my life, if I ever become a part of your past, please, let me stay there.
That aside...
Relevant people will probably never read this but whatever it is...
To the different people who used to be in my life, I'm probably a part of your past, significant or insignificant.
To be honest... I want to remain in the past. I don't want to reawaken something that died long ago. It's almost melancholic to watch people trying to catch the past that no longer lives today. We try to catch up, but really...there's nothing interesting about me. I don't like watching people trying so hard to find something to speak to me with.
I want to keep the doors closed.
And to the people who are still in my life, if I ever become a part of your past, please, let me stay there.
Silence
Silence is good. It lets you hear what is spoken and what isn't. And when you can hear them, listen to them. And when you listen to them, you'll understand a lot more.
When there's so much noise in and out of you, you'll be drowned out.
You won't hear a thing, let alone listen and understand.
把脑子放空， 才能注意聆听。
When there's so much noise in and out of you, you'll be drowned out.
You won't hear a thing, let alone listen and understand.
把脑子放空， 才能注意聆听。
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Stupid Dream
I dreamt that an irritant (in my real life) ordered lots of furniture and got the desk that my father made and set up replaced. He spent thousands of dollars doing it, and I was damn angry cuz he didn't even ask me for permission before he proceeded with the work. Plus, how could he just replace my dad's work like that!?!??!
Then, at one turn of the head, the whole setup disappeared, and Liz was around in the room. I asked her if she knew about that irritant doing all that crap and that I swore I saw the changes... (cuz suddenly all gone) She said that he was blacklisted by several furniture shops because he'd buy a lot of them, fix up, and then take down and refund all of the furniture he bought. Hahaha.
I woke up.
And today, said irritant came to my house. >.>
I can be a psychic or a prophet already. <.<
Then, at one turn of the head, the whole setup disappeared, and Liz was around in the room. I asked her if she knew about that irritant doing all that crap and that I swore I saw the changes... (cuz suddenly all gone) She said that he was blacklisted by several furniture shops because he'd buy a lot of them, fix up, and then take down and refund all of the furniture he bought. Hahaha.
I woke up.
And today, said irritant came to my house. >.>
I can be a psychic or a prophet already. <.<
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
Pink Color Lipstick?
Whatever that show is called in English. Uh. Okay while it's like a spin off from Cruel Temptation...
...I like how most of the arguments are kept short! Not like Cruel Temptation...long-winded, repetitive and nonsensical. The good guys all dunno how to argue one. At least this show they know how to get back at the bad guy! I...think and I hope. Oh well. In general the characters just feel smarter...anddd their reaction makes more sense. Haha. Got a bit more power balance than in Cruel Temptation.
...
These days, as I write my personal fiction, I think it's really fiction. Haha. The characters are ridiculously loyal, devoted, selfless and self-sacrificing man. ... ... I'll just continue to dream. It's a pretty nice dream. If it keeps you happy, why not? ^^
...I like how most of the arguments are kept short! Not like Cruel Temptation...long-winded, repetitive and nonsensical. The good guys all dunno how to argue one. At least this show they know how to get back at the bad guy! I...think and I hope. Oh well. In general the characters just feel smarter...anddd their reaction makes more sense. Haha. Got a bit more power balance than in Cruel Temptation.
...
These days, as I write my personal fiction, I think it's really fiction. Haha. The characters are ridiculously loyal, devoted, selfless and self-sacrificing man. ... ... I'll just continue to dream. It's a pretty nice dream. If it keeps you happy, why not? ^^
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