i am sick?

i never entertained the possibility that i might fall sick despite being the most prone to sickness within my vicinity. but i guess i still do. and now i'm online only cuz my dad wants to print email. -.-

so as it turns out, i couldn't get off the freaking floor due to giddiness. in the end my colleague sent me home via his car. sigh. sometimes i think my illness management is pretty screwed. lol 8D when things like this happened in sec school (quite frequently), i tended not to care how i appeared.. i just lay on the floor. wow. talk about pixelated vision. colour was pretty screwy like a 20yr old tv and i didn't quite comprehend what was going on in front of me. man. if i wanted to faint, could i at least completely faint so that people around me have no choice but to carry me or bring me or on a stretcher?? and not half ass faint like a half spoilt tv???

so yeah, because of this strange crap today, i got the chance to go to the bank before it closes. yessss. i got my GO! card. apparently it's a free debit card from posb that you can get as long as you exchange your current nets card for it. and it's under mastercard so you supposedly can do online purchases. once i get my iBanking up, i'm off to settling paypal... and buying Gold for *censored*!! 8DDD man. i was so technologically retarded such that even the most unlikely people had set up such complicated transaction processes and i'm still digging around "how you set up link between bank and paypal?" yah. so i guess necessities (..erh, whatever) force you to change and learn if you have to eh?

and if you ask me, "you're paying to play?" ah yes, i am. ♥ holy crap i found out the keys for hearts! ♥ i used to pay to play RO. i wonder what happened to my thief Yugo. i remember i had another thief or merchant or what but i forgot their names. i never reached assassin... grinding became too painful for me and i was too lazy to get someone to make my Yugo bot. D8 but by the time i was playing Yugo thief, i was already on some RO that was free...? i think? ahh whatever.

i don't know what RO is like now, but paying to play *censored* makes far more sense than that RO i played years ago. no real quests--pure grinding. the only attraction was the idea of reincarnating and resetting your character, only with highly increased basic stats that makes your character godly during re-levelling. but to grind to that stage? spare me man, i could use the time to write a complete Phoenix Wright fanfiction, of which i am currently working on 8D

now what should i do with the rest of my life? oh well. i'm gonna resign pretty soon, although i know very well there is a high chance of switching to perm. well, i kinda don't want to stick around a workplace feeling like a routine robot just to OT and get some 2k+ pay which makes completely no sense. it's like getting paid to become stupid, y'know? at the same time, the chances of getting a job that allows you to learn on your own pace and doesn't disturb you too much isn't readily available i suppose. ahhh. whatever. when it comes, it comes.

shall dig around soon. i hope 2010 is a decidedly different year. i hope i can humble myself further. a part of me still holds certain opinions strongly and it's not going to help me in the long run, especially when i run over others with these opinions of mine. subjects about life is seldom something you can contain your 'passion' about. it could get so intense you'd wanna chup other people's lives--but why bother if you can't manage your own? as they say, there isn't a bigger enemy than yourself.

so whoever they are, i should get off the com soon. once liz is back, i shall get her to do *censored* for me! 8D