Nice Article

Okay... I came across a nice article:

How to not depend on others to make you happy

It obviously isn't proofread. But it sounds natural on the ear so...oh well, I guess I'm not as picky about language as I thought I was.

That aside, I thought the content was rather meaningful.

It kinda reminds me how in the past I got emotionally tired and I told the person to go make herself happy. Then her response was: "I can't do that at all. How can I do that? Tell me."

Not exactly those words, but something along the line, a blatant statement that pushed all the responsibility to me. Well, sure... I can be the listening ear who's somehow always on call to hear an earful of ramblings. I can be the trash can over MSN who's fed all sorts of bah, negative things. How is it that I've become responsible for someone else's emotional wellbeing? o_O

Meh...and all sorts of emo nonsense. I have now effectively installed an emo radar that sends chills up my ass when I see the act-happy-but-not-happy emo buttbags. Heyyy... There's a difference between people who aren't comfortable sharing emo events but can't hide it and people who are leaking emo scent and hope people pick it up, ask them about it and listen to their barrage of emo stories.

Bah. I think I came out of the mess as the bad guy, who wouldn't account to friends and be responsible for wiping their asses.

...Hmm. Thinking about it, I wonder if I'm still affected? I guess I'm still feeling faintly bitter about it. Yeah... No point denying it. The one thing that's leaving me with a big thumb sore called "regret" is that I never got to brutally bash the other person on the head. Erh, figuratively or verbally, not literally.

Now, why didn't I do it?

Like always, there are two sides to the same nickel, and meh... It's hard to say, but I've had a crap load of faults on my part that I can't even wash myself clean even if I jumped through the what, yellow river?

The one outstanding thing that I have and am still trying super hard to get rid of is not keeping promises. I'm liable to making them and breaking all of them hurhur. ~__~ Left a lot of repercussions. Now trying not to promise anything even at knife point, if I knew I wasn't gonna fulfill it. Annoys myself.

Biggest mistake was not being able to set boundaries. Couldn't tell what was what, who was who... Best death trap for emotional blackmail and lack of respect. Yeah I mean, the moment you get too close, you take your friend for granted and then respect just suddenly disperses on its own.

Hmm yeah, I like things with a bit of distance. It's kinda fun, knowing you can't exactly dig into your friend's everything but still wanting to know what they're like. Makes them look mysterious and interesting to be with. It's something I never knew when I never set boundaries.

Ooo. I feel kinda better now.