new blog: nan nin desu ka?

i am so excited! hahaha. hz and i have started a blog that's gonna to be in (broken) jap! :D she suggested it, and i think the idea sounds damn cool!

anyone wanna join us? actually, i do not know if it's open to invitation, but who cares...i shall wait for her to post. she said she wanted to make the first post or something, so now i am waiting. :DDD (link is at my blog links list. wee！

as anime puts it... わくわくするぜ！！

i don't know why yesterday i could type jap straight into the browser and today it's kokking up on me, so imma like typing jap in winword and pasting here. how dumb =__= ok. 5 seconds it suddenly started working on my browser again. what the hell!?!?!?

i shall take my uncle's advice. he studies jap on his own and he has never taken a single lesson but somehow he got himself a japanese wife and is able to communicate quite well in jap. his advice is : practise, practise, practise!

i forgot what i wanted to say. aiyah. anyway, fumoffu is really nice. i hope to see more animation of full metal panic by the studios taking part in fumoffu. seriously high quality for the genre it's in man. love love.

anyway, my sis found a rusted can of braised beans at the back of our water flask. it has expired one year and 2 months. oh no. who's gonna eat it sia.

themeless post

yo~ i happen to be online. so let me talk kok.

at the moment, i am wondering what happened to baato-chan. come slack with us someday! (don't be too frightened by the whole idea of badminton and basketball and what nots. we're not much healthier and we're playing the sloth's version of sports anyway, where sports rarely outlasts 1.5hrs.)

i am trying to learn 2 songs from ayumi. and they are Love'n'hate and Rule. hah. catchy tunes.

i tried to draw. oh God, give me strength to continue drawing. i seem to draw worse and worse each other. is it...is it the psyche that is acting up??? no! i... no!!! *dramaaaaz! weeee!*

hey. i haven't finished my dinner but i'm here blogging??? ...

also, there's one thing i wanna say. how can say stuff like sue the dumb girl who brought the H1N1 in locally??? wah lao! yeah, logic says...
1. cancel the darn trip!
2. don't come back if you're ill!
3. don't cause the next 4million of us to be infected you evil soul!
4. one soul can die for all we care, don't "hai" (harm) the rest of us!

yeah anyone's head or logic can say that, but where's your heart??? have a heart! imagine you are the suay butt who kena lah! wah liu. when it doesn't happen to you, you have the best theories on how to go about handling stuff like that man. when you kena then it's a whole different story! and i don't think the girl intentionally wanted to "hai" the rest of the dunno how many millions billions and trillions of us in singapore!!!

that aside, i hope the girl wasn't really thinking of spreading the virus to the rest of the world.

sure, we have the most logical people who can't believe there are a lot of dumb people in singapore (believe me, most of us are dumber than we think we are), but we've just shown the world how heartless all of us can be dudes and dudettes!

so, have a heart. pity me and donate me $10 per person..

anyway, sigh, i miss learning dancing and singing crap with huizhen suddenly. =X (partly cuz now listening to utada songs and i saw the nobody live concert while i was looking at laptops at courts TM. lol)

em your exam over already right? let us know when you can go for a game of badminton, basketball or just cycling ok! ;D

each day, my desire to be a troll strengthens. yes. it is my next biggest aim... to be a sloth. sigh, i'm beginning to think it's in the blood. the whole tan family (if you're wondering, my mother's the tan... i'm ng) is literally inflicted with laziness. all my tan relatives have at one point worked extremely hard, and then they ended up all becoming sloths who occasionally pop by without warning just to talk kok. all 6 of the tan siblings are sloths.

eldest - best sloth. used to tend a mama shop (where i nab freebies and where he can be caught sleeping while tending the shop), but has retired with 4 kids all giving pocket money. eldest sloth. and, he dislikes staying out long because he wants to go home and sleep. dude. (remember rolly polly? she looks something like him.)
2nd eldest - she is a very lazy person. i don't know what to say, but she's even lazy to think. mom says she's practically an absorber/copycat of the environment, see what learn what talk what.
3rd - he used to have a business i think. then for his family he spent a lot, then now he's a taxi driver. somehow he has enough money to go holiday as and when he likes. favourite activity is talk kok, watch tv, sleep, roll around. cancel the last part.
4th - he used to open chain food stalls across JB, but closed his business for his family. anyway, saving a lot of stories, i dunno what he does now, but his favourite activity is watching taiwanese news and sleeping.
5th - my mother. her favourite activities are read, exercise, watch tv (especially about animals and crime and blood and gore !??!?! ), and sleep. my memory of her is literally a sleeping woman. to me, sleeping is not her 1/3 of her life activity, but half her life. LOL.
youngest - the uncle who slacks at my house. he owns a collar pin business. he uses "we make badges" when there's really just him. he is so bloody predictable it's funny. he likes to watch tv, listens to news radio, buys toto, and sleeps. i'm sure those who come my house must have at least seen him once at the sofa. even when buying new sofa, i thought of him first.

little bit of trivia. when mom said let's buy new sofa, i said, "you should ask uncle... he spends 2/3 of his day there." and i was thinking he would most likely feel alarmed if we were to change sofas. then when my mother finally said, "hey i throwing this sofa away and getting a new on," my uncle immediately sat up, looked alarmed and said, "why? what? this sofa is good wat, why change?" LOL. when the new sofa came though, he said it's ok and he continues his life as a sloth there. HAHAHA. what a predictable man. i will laugh if one day he fuses with the sofa. erh. actually i won't laugh...i think i'll spas and die.

so, i have proven my case... it's in the blood. lol. my favourite past time has never really changed... game, writing, and sleeping. i lied--i don't like reading. LOL. i only read when it piques my interest enough. my average time in secondary school was 3~4mths for one book. which proves i don't read much because at that rate i can only read 4 books per year. but i liked writing. and the only reading comes when i'm reviewing what i write, seriously.

btw my sis' favourite past time is drawing and...what else, sleeping. it was worse in the past. i think it got better. she used to sleep for hours, and hours, and hours...only to wake up, and sleep again. hahaha.

so, what blood of my father's did i get. i've been trying to analyse for years. i think my sis inherited his ability to concentrate, focus and do one thing (his is machinery, liz is drawing). of all the things i had to inherit from him was my superb temper. unfortunately i learnt to do things my mother's way--anyhow hamtam. and she dare to scold me when she say i do things like she does! @$(#*&$#@ !?? oh. i think i inherited his kpohness in tampering with things though.

my mother thinks i'm as noisy as he is. but i have no idea how noisy he is. actually....i think he's quite noisy. oh, whatever.

oh...! sloth is my destiny... woe be to me...!

Listening to: Heart Station
Watching: Dragon Ball OH LOVE!

i was wrong...

there IS a card that costs more than 50,000PTS... and it's TEN TIMES THAT AMOUNT!!! i spent half a million on a Dark Loan card T__T sai. if i get it through random card packs, i uh... actually i dunno what i'd say or do lah.

i ate a medicine for itchy outburst and i felt like sleeping the whole day. smart me.

sigh. this year is only halfway through. i feel like this year is bloody boring. cosfest is coming, natsu matsuri is coming, but i feel like it's another passing year. am i just growing old? am i finally going to wither?? and rot and die??? ...

that aside, i have no idea where to go after september. my contract ends september, just so you know. and by then, we would have two allies going up to Shaolin Temple and training up to defend our country. and i'm aiming to quit everything and live a secluded life by 30yrs old. i have no idea how i'm going to achieve that.

this is my grand plan for 30yrs old --> save up enough for investment by 30yrs, spend only a few hundred dollars per month, make money generate money through investment, then live a life of a troll--coming out only to hunt for food (description taken from a senior). i quite fancy that life actually. and in fact, my uncle is living that very life now. he's selling collar pins, he is his own boss, he watches tv everyday and only comes out when we summon him or when he's out buying toto.

he's an atheist--does not believe in Gods or ghosts for that matter. but i have no idea why he believes in luck, fate and destiny. ah well. humans are contradictory.

some people tell me years fly by quickly. oh yes? i feel like i've struggled to finally get past 21yrs mark, and i can't wait for this lifetime to pass. whether people remember you or not, you'd have passed this life anyways, no? hmm. should we live a short and exciting life, or a long and boring life? or should we live a long and exciting life, or a short and boring life? before i was 21, i was waiting for 21yrs old to come and somehow i had this very vivid idea that i was going to drop dead because by 21 i'd be super old. but now that i've leveled up to 21, i began to accept reality that life doesn't stop at 21. and now i suddenly feel that level 60-80 is going to take damn long to reach. sigh, so much work to survive till then.

ahhh. if one day someone invented this machine where you don't have to stay awake to be alive...i'd want to live in it :D you know the manga houshin engi? one of the sennin lives in this life support sleeping capsule...i want it...!

and in my next lifetime, i want to be born a definitive woman or man... no more of this not-so-unique identity of an androgynous nonsense...! sigh... as a no man no woman, you either get labeled as an unattractive woman or a butch, or a half assed she-man or something like that. y'know? like not left not right no straight?? sigh~. if i were a definitive woman, then at least i can dance nobody like somebody, or a gee like a true blue korean lady. hah. and if i'm a man, i want to walk around the house half naked.

and i want my astrological sign to be something like libra, gemini or aquarius. hahhh all the air air one. finally sian of being water element.

oh and if i were born a man in my next life, i want to stay up the mountains and train and blast "ki" energy out of my palms. :D it's difficult, but i'd be too accustomed to that life to bother if it's difficult.

meantime, i have this life to think about it. =/ so, what to do with it? i have one life, about maybe hundreds of thousands of hours left to make some money to achieve my troll dream. sigh~ what to do. not sure what to do leh.

maybe i should experiment starving myself to death in modern singapore, where i have a mother who fears famine???

hmm...

sigh~ it's only may. going june. ahh~

actually, i'm half torn by what i read about chinese horoscope. it says, rabbit chan, no can change job this year! i was like, "scorn scoff pfft whatever" but now i find myself stuck in a job because mom is making lots of noise if i dare to make drastic moves -__- i'm 21. so, i should stop listening to momma?? hmm. the other truth is, i want to finish up what i was tasked to do at the current job before i wave goodbye. so i'm giving myself until sep too. that would be a new record...10 full mths at a job for the first time. i mean, woah, i actually committed 10 mths. that is un precedented.

chinese horoscope also says, rabbit chan, if you don't die kotoshi (this year), rainen and rairainen (whatever next next year is), you will eat lots of carrot. oh, i hope it's true.

by the way, don't lend things to men. one of the men ever told me before, "amongst us men, we lend/borrow things and never return." i'm beginning to think it's true. and money is one of them items. so, dudes and dudettes, no lend things ok. i have nothing against men. you might be one of those men who return things on time. but a couple of them have destroyed my faith in people returning items altogether.

that aside, anyone wanna commission me to draw? :D greeting cards or whatsoever. for friends only. lol. and i draw only simple things.

i am in dire need of sleep and money. but i'm too much of a sloth to do anything.

maybe one day Buddha will *zap* appear at my door step and decide to whip my life into shape? hmm...

k, enough whining. i probably should go back to story writing soon. sigh. sigh sigh sigh yaya!

Listening to: Utada Hikaru - Travelling
Watching: Dragon Ball Z (Majin Buu Saga)
Playing: Budokai 3, Mga2

games, games, games...

hmm. weird thought, but i don't understand why humans would want to engage in intimate weeheehees with animals. isn't that just kinda... hmm how would you put it. otherworldly?

that aside. we finally got ourselves a new philips dvd player. NO CAN BUY HYUNDAI DVD BUYER OKS MINNA-SAN. it's crap.

that aside, i am back to playing Dragon Ball Z: Budokai 3. i just realised it's rated above 8/10 at gamespot...and that's a good score :) and they gave Chrono Cross 10/10 -- that i won't forget cuz i remember replaying at least 6 times without once saying it was getting boring. and at that time i had no idea of its ratings. now that i know, i can't agree more! love love love.

weird tip for mga2 players. no one's gonna read this, but hey, who cares.

so, i was trying to earn points. i used the Big Boss card that generates 2x PTS each time you complete a mission, but the highest i ever got with it was some 11000 or so PTS. card packs are sold from 600PTS to 1500PTS and you get to buy 10 packs per category every intermission, so 11000 really isn't a lot when you think about it (there are 4 categories). single cards are worst. i haven't seen anything more expensive than 50000PTS but that's still ex anyway.

i got really sick of earning an average of 10800PTS every round when rare cards keep appearing in the single cards shop. eventually i started to use military gain cards. i think the best place to use it is at the Cargo Train eliminate missions. all your enemies are sukiyaki boxes, things that the Stingers (now called FIM2A, Redeye II or something to that effect) can aim from the starting point.

so my basic set up for PTS earning:
Military Gain+ cards for both Venus and Snake
at least 3 stingers per person
a big boss card on snake
lots of cost reduction cards just in case you can't get all the above 3 asap. it's a real pain in the butt if you don't have cost reduction cards to cut the wait.

this method nabs me 18800PTS per round in maximum 5mins worth of gameplay...compared to the same time of 10800PTS. (all because of the military gain+ cards that generate 1000PTS per enemy destroyed while standing in the military gain+ traps) since you don't have to move out of the trap due to the auto-aim feature of stingers... i kinda think this is the cheapest way of doing it.

mwahahhaha. my points have hit the million mark (L)(L)(L) actually, i didn't check out if gamefaqs already has this tip. if it does, what the hell? and if there's a better tip, what the double hell??

come to think of it, i was talking about budokai 3. wtf? k. schizophrenic outburst.

nonsense aside, budokai 3 is quite entertaining. but i think it's not something you can play for years...it's something that once you've forgotten what it's like and when you replay it from start, it's a really great game. the crap is i have a saved data for it, but i decided not to use it and use my other memory card to start a clean slate. and i unlocked uub whom i didn't in the previous data simply because i didn't think a dumb game like that required faqs. (i didn't know the existence of uub, supreme kai and omega shenlong as unlockable characters.) so what the hell. i think i'm playing this game far better than i did in the past, but whatever; seems to apply to everything i do anyway.

i suddenly got the desire to draw and so i started to draw. but after i started drawing, i'm starting to wonder, am i too late to return to the artist's path? and so i started and started and started (i was just reviewing my sentence and i realised wow i have powerful language!). it's a pretty intense world out there, not to mention competitve. mgs2 has an interesting point to say about competition. near the end of the game, it talked about "censorship". and it said, sometimes information is a confusing thing. "nice to others," we're taught, but later in life, we're taught a different thing: "beat out the competition." quite food for taught, no? i often imagine a wonderfully peaceful world where we just do our own thing and not cross each other's line but that's the perfect world that doesn't exist. do the same as someone else and you get the same thing. is it true? i don't know. all i do know is that given the way i learn, it's going to take me at least another 10yrs to reach anything with commercial value.

it could be a matter of strategy, or diligence...or something else? i don't know. i might have mentioned before that i don't have much imagination. i piece stories up, i make relations, but i don't have images in my head when i do these things. most images in my head are nothing more than fogs, seriously.

drawing is something of a precise nature but i'm so haphazard with a lot of things i do. i like broad and general things. and when it comes to precision, i am next to a hopeless pile of wooh! whatever that is. :D

then again, oh well. enough whining. i think the bigger challenge is sucking it all up and continue drawing. i hope this whole idea of quantity drawing really is the way to improving, as is writing. i do believe reading out loud and writing a lot are the key elements to improving your linguistics abilities, not so much the quality of.

ramble ramble ramble. lalallaa. i wanna bathe. the weather sucks. oooooo.

humourless me. maybe i'd be a little bit more lively once i stop kicking myself over drawing. grguuhh.

btw, manpuku is quite nice. :D

just testing something... save save!

some thoughts

hmm. i started to think about my blogging habits in the past. i only started blogging in 2004. it was on another blogging service, which i will not name so you cannot trace ;D i started it only because i wanted to link with some other friends.

then about last year start or what i stopped using it. not sure for how long i opened and closed blogs on blogspot, then i started this blog as you see it. then after a while, i'm back to not blogging regularly. o__O erhh. wonder why.

then again, what i used to blog about were pretty negative lah. so i don't really wanna go back to blogging about what i used to blog. so emo. some more dunno when people can take my stuff, analyse it or take it apart, then attack me indirectly on their own blogs. it's quite sad, and i used to be a culprit of that myself, so, yah.

which sometimes gets me wondering, is it better to say everything on your mind, or is it better to present just the rosy image? the rosy image loses its realistic touch while being overly 'honest' may just be being irresponsible with your words. i mean, have you ever been attacked brutally with words and have it explained away as "honesty"? then honesty must not be a virtue in that context. not just because the words hurt people, but because it's an excuse for people to take no responsibility in their words.

is it true you can be the person you choose to be? or are we destined to grow into what we were originally designed to be? who designed us, the environment or ourselves? there are those who hold parents responsible for a kid's personality/behaviour, while parents are more likely to blame it on bad influence from friends or just genes that they believe they cannot correct. now there are studies on eye irises to determine whether a person is evil from birth. so should we eliminate the child from birth if he has the eye iris or the genes of a criminal? one side of the world argues that it's a mix of genes and environment that make up the personality, the other argues that it's largely genes.

and as a child, do you often wonder whether to blame yourself, your environment or your parents for who you are? are you able to eliminate blame? does it feel wrong to you to blame your parents for who you are? does it feel irresponsible to blame the environment? on the contrary, aren't people supposed to be "children of the environment?" apart from the two views about genes and environment, one more has opened up the possible 'truth' that it is 5% genes and 95% environment.

going off tangents as usual haha. one thought just led to another. you know... the world is entertaining in its own right when there are so many possibilities that people pursue. and precisely because there is so much information, it gets pretty difficult and confusing to discern the 'truth'. there are many issues that don't concern right or wrong, but it gets dragged into the picture because we simply want to win a case. who follows a 'wrong' person?

i'm itching to type, but i dunno what to type. hope it didn't bore you. haha.

on a side note, isn't it about time blogger put the fields in, "Listening to" or stuff like that? or is it already in place, just that i dunno where it is? haha.

arse splitting action..

you've heard of hair splitting, but what about arse splitting?

i dunno what i ate a few days ago. then it happened. my 12 trips to the toilet in 24 hrs. i bloody felt like a friggin dispenser. i bet you're rolling your eyes, fanning the air or dying inside after seeing that. 3u3

which reminds me, my colleage ever emailed us a bunch of definitions for different types of toilet businesses. if i find it, i'll post it in this blog. 8D

a search on the internet

come to think of it, is it easy to google your way to my blog?

i typed Ashin and Mayday was all over the place hahah.

i'm just curious cuz sometimes, people leave their favourite words all over the net for people to track their secret blogs and stuff like that, or even secret endeavours. generic names actually make it harder for your blog to be tracked, non?

that aside, i was just wondering. if you don't talk for a week, will you have a whole week worth of essay on the blog?? because that would be really cool. it's like a week worth of constipated nonsense. ...

hmm. maybe i should do some drawing instead. these days i really have nothing to say.

hahaha.

heechul cries

stuff like this makes me cry too.. it's really touching :)

can women toilet manners become meeting content?

yes, it can.

it has been proven.

we ever attended a meeting in company, with toilet manners as its content. what the hell? and it was only for women.

apparently some strange cha bo threw their bread with jam into the toilet bowl and expected that sucker to be able to suck up all that crap without getting choked to death. apparently the white-faced bowl couldn't take the shock and died with a bloodied bread stuck up its throat.

and this strange cha bo did something like that twice or what, not sure lah.

our HR was super agitated and started to go on a rave about how inconsiderate this woman is. indeed! how could you be such a disgrace to humanity and female dignity! this is going to cause social degradation and human devolution!

the HR said 2 interesting things: if it happened again, a sign in system must be created for the toilet (wow, creating job opportunities for the Toilet Security post?) and number 2, how are you gonna tell the guys what kind of meeting you attended??

someone suggested having our arses checked to see hints of timely visits. i was like, dude, this feels kinda wrong. but the HR said the Management has decided to be graceful and give one more chance to this weirdity. i say we should highlight the suspects man! i'd like to see the face of the woman who appeared straight face in meeting but is really the murderer of that giggolo.

so, the meeting ends off with a couple of women laughing at the ridiculosity (???) of the this issue, some feeling happy that half an hour has been spent on national education and a few others wondering what the hell that whole thing was about.

i swear this is STOMP worthy.

dude, what the hell is Liz' recent interest in Hatsune Miku? she can't sing my Beautiful World properly leh! and at this moment i'm listening to her songs via youtube thanks to this siao cha bo. #*$#&(@&

my saturday

i have run out of creative titles. suddenly, i feel like being a bit more hardworking by blogging. haha.

yesterday, i woke up at 9.30am even thought my work is at 9. LOL. so i reached work at 10am. and i had the audacity to leave at 1pm to take the tanah merah trip to go to Kinokuniya. i have no idea how but Liz and i went to Liang Court instead of Orchard Road.

we dropped by funan IT mall and bought x-mini second generation speaker (LH has somehow become a promoter!). then went to gamescore to find my Metal Gear Acid 2... DUDE! the shop wasn't open due to someone's wedding???

we reached liang court. shopped. end of story yay wee! what's so interesting about shopping anyway -.-

we went back to gamescore. bought 2 games at 20% off! i wouldn't have bought mga2 (preowned) if my iso was working but it wasn't. DUDE! (i have seen the advantages of an iso file compared to a UMD. at least when i go toilet and play, there wouldn't be sounds coming from the loading UMD mah. *giggles) anyways it was cheaper than online, but the previous owner... TOOK AWAY THE SOLID EYE! EVIL! (it's an extra accessory to play the game. #*$&#@(*&$*(#@$) the other game is DJMAX fever, but honestly, i don't know why i bought it o.O collector's attitude? hmm. whatever.

then because meeting time with the rest was 3.30pm, i was horribly late. LOL. reached home at 4.10pm i think and that was damn heng cuz mn reached at 4.15pm not knowing i wasn't home before 4 LOL lh told her i was home but hz was the right one when she said i wasn't hahahahaa

anyway xy (xue ying) came too! she has nice long legs. hahaha. trained up for tai tai image?

so, hz, who just suspectedly woke up not long ago and hadn't eaten breakfast and lunch, was late. and swj, we can only guess. -.-

we went to some shelter to play badminton. yahhhh. fun leh. 3 VS 3 with 2 shuttlecocks is damn cool woh. i kinda wanna try 4 VS 4 with 3 or 4 shuttlecocks. :D

give you an unimportant update. remember i whacked Liz's shoulder with my racket and then she counterattacked me with a merciless whack to my ass? while i was bathing this morning, i felt a dull ache at my ass. ahhh. the cruelty of blood relation.

so, mn complimented i have long arms and legs because i could hit shuttlecocks while being seated. this is the truth: i inherited my father's body proportions, i suspect, and there's only two things you can compare his figure to--an orang utan or a gaki. (i side tracked a full 10mins searching for gaki inside Kuon the horror game or the Manji Cultist inside tenchu wrath of heaven, but i couldn't find anything so i made do with this horrid looking thing -.-).

then we went to a nearby kopitiam to eat. (hahh. i suddenly remember hz felt like puking her sis' birthday cake while playing badminton. labour day = mother labour her kid out day? LOL.) hmm. nothing exciting about eating meat hoh.

after which we went my house to watch youtube. wow. once bring hz in, become Kpop and Jpop haven leh. we started watching Intimate Note and Family Outing. personally i preferred Intimate Note... (due to the Miss Intimate thing. LOL) then again, i haven't watched much of both so too early for judgment? hahh i like Heechul! monkey hahh

in the end, there was no mahjong and there was no Prince of Tennis. LOL way tangents offfff what i thuoght we'd be doing weeee!

after mn and xy left, the rest of started watching uwa bo wahs (??). .. and hz and i tried to learn the SNSD Gee dance and the Wonder Girls' nobody dance. hah we dance literally nobody and no body dance. hahahahahaha. i now know how to do the "no no no no no no BAPO!" dance Heheheheheh

i must emphasize. no late nights for a while now. i think none of us can take it much anymore. ughhh.

next week, anyone up to Basketball? hz's suggestion. hey, surprise leh! after yesterday's session my limbs didn't hurt as much today! last week was bad. wowww magical. exercise is magical!

i kinda wanna go on night cycling, after i change jobs and after i get a decent bicycle. been hearing all the dudes and dudettes talking about how fun it is. haven't actually experienced it myself. heard from Baato that cycling past geylang at night is an interesting sight to behold. :D

so, take care, dudes and dudettes. we shall break our legs, shoulders and arms next week...if anyone is up for it LOL.