sentimentality today~ no lame stuff~

allll right, a break from my usual lame stuff. i went to daiso today and got meself some card holders to transfer my Dragon Ball, Sailormoon, Final Fantasy VIII, Bomberman, Rockman and Tamagochi 20cents cards into. as i was searching for my ff8 cards, i stumbled across my two boxes of memories, literally.

i keep all sorts of junk dating all the way back to 10yrs ago, and in the midst, found meself lots of odd stuff, from friends and enemies alike haha.

i found the letter from a friend written to me when she wanted to break the friendship! i'd lost it for 5yrs but now i accidentally found it O.O (anyway after 5yrs we're on talking terms now haha.) i kept a couple of the weird things she gave me, like her card as the President of a certain club (which technically speaking was her own creation LOL).

then i found weird things from another friend, like an SM-ed owl. or another friend, who bought things back from Shanghai and produces rather professional art actually. and another friend who bought me a pencil board (shitajiki), houshin engi.

i thought i'd remember all sorts of negative things, but ahhhh...today's the day i realise how much a softee i really am. *shivers* i didn't think i'd keep all the things i kept. i even kept the special force card my classmate designed for me (i am an agent who upholds justice!), or a letter from an indonesian friend through another pri 6 classmate.

then coming to greeting cards and presents...wow i actually have the Christmas cards that my section gave me! (actually, not too surprising, considering i still keep the birthday card that my property agent Miki Koh sent me) i kept the diary/organiser meiching gave me (erh...it's aged to a stage that it is...beyond useability...). i have most of hq's cards, some of hz's cards, etc etc. (and i realised that lh is not a man of many cards. LOL.) hmmm what else? i haven't completed my rummage since i really need to sleep soon... but it's quite a bit of old fragments of memories.

garghhh i swear my mood was sinking with a kind of nostalgia that is much too depressing! brrrr. looking at my card collection brings me much joy though.

do you think it's painful? to hold on to fragments of happiness of the past that no longer exist? there's a kind of hmm, melancholy in the objects. while i don't crave for the tiring excitement that i experienced while i was still schooling, and i'm not too sure if i desired that kind of experience anyway, i guess all that happened for a reason. i can only imagine how each individual's memories that are kept within my stash would react if i let them know that these things still rest in my corner.

but i'd never do that. you might already notice, i am pretty weak at following up--quite contrary to popular belief (???).

this might be the wrong blog to talk about my sentimentality! but i think it's not a sad post now is it? :D

just wanted to say and hint--give me something practical that i can use, so i won't stash it for some 10yrs. food would be good--they'd expire for only at the most 3yrs. LOL.

(oh shit, lameness returned. HAHAHA)